A rat, hiding in the long grass, scurried in the opposite direction as I ran by. And for a minute, I forgot how much my knees hurt. A few days earlier I explained to my friends - a handsome couple that runs marathons - that my knees hurt. Robert pursed his lips lightly as if he’d just read my chart and understood my entire situation. “It’s your shoes,” he said, as his wife Anne nodded in agreement. “What kind do you have?”
“Adidas,” I said, knowing they were a good brand but not a “real” runner’s shoe.
“Those are good shoes,” he said with a touch of sympathy in his voice.
“You should go to my friend’s shop. She sells Brooks,” said Anne. I knew this would eventually start: the purchase of stuff. And not just any stuff; the good stuff. Back when hiking and canoeing was my passion (before kids), I would go to outfitters just to take in the smell. Rubber and plastic gadgets hung on the wall, promising me adventure and fitness if I’d just throw them in my cart. The hottest clothes in the trendiest blends hung on racks, assuring me that urban yet wilderness look. Even the socks were cool. Over the years, I’ve bought enough items to furnish a second home: a miniature espresso machine; a flashlight I could wear on my forehead; a solar shower; water filters; laminated maps; and backpacks full of things I could collapse and reassemble while sitting outside my tent swatting away the mosquitoes and beam in glorious pride: Look! It’s just like the real thing, but tiny. And it weighs nothing!
One of the reasons I chose running was because all it required was a pair of shoes. I can toss them in the car, drop the kids off to a class, and run. I can travel and run. Visit relatives and escape for a run. I can run anywhere. I don’t have to go to a gym, and if I walk quickly past the Nike and Puma store, I save money.
The Adidas I purchased one afternoon in a hurry while my daughter griped by my side at how long it was taking to get the ice cream I promised her. Yet I knew if I didn’t buy a pair of shoes now, it would be another week before I could get back to the mall. I entered the store and asked a man who was younger than my car for a pair of running shoes. He walked to the front desk and got a key. He opened the case and pulled out a pair of white tennis with those three stripes down each side. I slipped them on.
“When are we going for ice cream?” my daughter asked again as she flipped upside down on the bench next to me. I told the sales person I’d take the shoes. The next morning I was on the road. I ran on for two months and faced only sore calf muscles and an aching gluteus maximus, which I knew was normal when beginning any sport. Then one day I noticed a pain in the left knee. A few days later, it began in the right knee. Both joints ached in exactly the same spot. Even I knew, without the help of my good friends, it was the shoes.
The Brooks shop was high up on a cement wall above all the other stores around it. I buzzed the doorbell and entered. It smelled like the inside of a new car. I looked around at all the things I could buy. But I promised myself the old t-shirts in the closet were fine. The shorts too. I was here for shoes. I told the sales person I was a friend of Anne’s.
“You’re going to want to talk to Michelle,” she said. The store was small and round racks separated the space into men’s and women’s. Boxes of shoes lined the wall. Michelle appeared from a back room. She wore a faded red running shirt and black running tights that stopped at her knees. A pony tail bounced behind her as she walked.
Michelle is one of those really passionate, really good runners. We exchanged brief stories: kids, divorces, careers, and running. After forty minutes, we got to the shoes. I wore the Adidas on my feet because Anne said Michelle liked to look at the tread. I pointed to the floor. “Those are court shoes,” said Michelle. “They’re for walking.” I felt like I’d just discovered my skirt was bundled up in my underwear for the last half hour and no one told me. “Don’t get me wrong,” she said with as much enthusiasm as she had forty minutes ago. “It’s a good shoe. It’s just not a running shoe.” Michelle began scanning the boxes for a size eight and one-half or a nine. There weren’t any. She began talking to her associate about getting a distributor to send a pair over. The next shipment of shoes for her store wasn’t coming for six weeks, and she wanted to get me on the road.
Brooks shoes have all these benefits like they are somehow eco-friendly, and there’s a little bag of water in the soul to absorb my shock. They look flashy too. Michelle gave me a pair of Saucony’s to wear. She said she was going to give them to me for free. She seemed truly disappointed as if her team just lost in the finals. The Saucony’s fit, and I honestly couldn’t tell the difference between these and the Adidas.
As I walked around the racks of designer shirts and shorts, Michelle’s sales associate remembered that Anne bought a half size smaller in Brooks. Michelle’s face lit up. She was back in the game. The associate found an eight. I put them on, but was weary. Even the slightest tightness around my left toes can cause unbelievable pain in my foot. I stepped up on the treadmill and began walking. “You are going to feel like you are running on cushions. This will be so different for you. You wait and see,” she said as I began to sweat. “You just wait. This will make all the difference in the world.” To my surprise, the Brooks fit. The free pair of Saucony’s were a distant memory as I placed my money on the counter. Michelle asked me if I needed any clothes. I shook my head. “Aren’t these great?” she said pulling a purple shirt from the rack. “Every thing is only ten dollars on this rack.”
“Ten dollars? I said taking a few steps towards the display. “Well I could use some shorts.”
“You definitely wear a small,” Michelle said, putting the purple shirt back and showing me a green one. As I put more money on the counter, I eyed the water belt in the glass case. This would be great for those long runs. I began justifying the purchase and quickly deciding where I could cut out a few things to be able to afford this like eating out less, reading by candlelight, foregoing the hairdryer, and cutting paper towels in half.
I took two days off as Michelle suggested. After a week of slowly getting back into the game, the pain in my knees lessened and after a month, eventually disappeared. The Brooks haven’t made me any faster though, and I don’t feel like I am running on air. Perhaps I jump a little higher when a rat rustles past, but nothing changes the fact that it’s me and the road taking it one step at a time.